Felt so happy when I manage to see him ytd. My heart sank when i heard from eve that he isnt coming.. He lied to eve. :\ sigh, he said he was tired and dont really feel like coming. Deep inside, i was hoping that his reason for coming is becos of me :) But i doubt so.. sigh

Today I lied to him. Tmr's sentosa outting and i said somebody needs his companion, obviously is me. I lied to him saying it's rena. he knows i'm lying, and he wants to know the truth. I kept on saying nobody. It's actually ME ME ME. but ya.. self-contradiction. poly is really starting soon and I'm really afraid right now.