So many things happened at the chalet. Found out that Ivan didnt forget me at all. So all of my predictions are right. but there's 1 thing. Once poly starts, we wont get to see each other often and there will be prettier girls in his course.. slowly, he will start to forget about me. He is such an ass seriously.. He got family problem, kept on drinking breezer at night, afternoon also. Face damn red, for me, 1 look I can see he got problems. I asked him, and he kept on saying "I'm okay" with that "not okay face". My heart honestly hurt like mad when I saw the situation. Zm and the rest knows what happened. But he purposely doesnt want to tell me. I asked him politely why, he said he doesnt want me to even get MORE worried for him... Feel like slapping him. He is very stupid la. I'll anyhow think of 101 possible reasons and will definitely get more worried lor. If he tells me, at least I dont have to think of so many reasons and yet I wont know the ans.. It's more worrying. Asshole.

3rd night, I was sleeping tgt with him (dont think wrong..) i swear that night was the greatest night, ever. Although he was sleeping soundly whereas I cannot get to sleep, I secretly kissed him.. hahaha, like those dramas right. I told myself, this will REALLY be the last time that I can get in contact with him at sucha close distance. Almost wanted to cry. When I woke up, I found him hugging me tightly to sleep... Seriously the feeling is very nice. I mean, I feel really v blessed, although we are bros&sis for now. He treats me as his meimei. Hope this kind of friendship continues. but i really cannot stop myself from worrying when I see him emo-ing. I hope zm will be there for him to cheer him up... that's all I want. I want him to be happy. I dont want to give him anymore problems. Ivanng, please rmb that I am still there for you. (: Be it as a friend, meimei or what... Because I still care for you, and the love I have for you didnt change, AT ALL since we got to know each other... okokok mushymushy. but it's true .