I dont know if yuanyi is still reading my blog... lolol.

Yea this is the only place that i can pen down all my thoughts and stuff... the only 'quiet' place.
Ytd was playing truth or dare with colleagues. I kanna truth. Actually the atmosphere is kinda awkward.. because I truly believe that they actually want to ask me something regarding him. But in the end Rena asked me if i like boys with chesthair.. hahaha.

I truly feel blessed that there's a girl out there who is taking care of him as a brother. seriously. It's not jealousy.. just that sometimes i'll feel a little sad, (but that's allright) because I aint the girl who's always there for him. it's not gonna be me anymore.

I know all the managers are laughing behind my back, i know. by looking at their faces, i can see it. They must be thinking, i'm so desperate for him. whatever... although it's kinda hurting, I'm gonna be okay. I will stay strong... I must have really made him turned off thats why he dislikes me now. I even find it awkward to stay as friends.. quite true. somebody told me this. if you and him can really stay as friends within sucha short period of time without any awkwardness, that means either both of you didnt truly love each other or both of you acknowledge the r/s as a fling. I really cannot make friends with him for sucha short time. I cannot do it. Because I truly love him before and I dont take that r/s as a fling. but idk about him. He must be telling the managers of what truly happened.. They never fail to threaten him to say the truth... I feel so bloody hurt right now.

Why must I always wear a mask wherever I go? Infront of a certain ppl, i needa wear mask A. Infront of another group of ppl I needa wear mask B. Now even infront of my family I needa wear mask C. The only time when I dont needa wear masks is when I'm alone.