I have told yy about today.
-He took the initiative to talk to me, as a friend.
-He notices me.
-He took barley water for me to drink. (P.S. I REALLY WANTED TO CHOOSE BARLEY & I DIDNT KNOW THAT HE KNOW)
-He got stunned and used 'coincidence' as an excuse
-He purposely sat beside me
-Rq knew it was awkward, she asked me to sit beside her instead.
-He knew I dont eat spicy things
-He notices me.

I really dont care if he did all this as a friend or lover. From what I know, both of us promised to care for each other as friends. I am also caring for him as a friend. I'm really satisfied to see E taking care of him. I believe E can do a better job than me. Since he feels happier by spending all his time with winston and co., I should feel happy for him. (: I've learnt. I know I still love him. thats for sure. I've never ever wanted to forget him or forget this love. This is one-sided thingy. I know it's gonna be hard, but at least I can be there for him as a friend. that's all I want. Afterall, i still hope sincerely that he still cannot forget me.................. HEHEH SO EVIL RIGHT ME. I still hope his feelings for me didnt change.. i really hope so. But once poly life starts, hahaha DAMN HARD TO SAY ALR. really must let fate decides for me. because i cannot 100% guarantee I will still love him after poly life starts. but i can 100% comfirm that I wont be interested in other guys anymore. In conclusion, it's either I still continue to care for him, or I dont love him already. because if I never have the chance to see him, feelings might fade. MIGHT. but usually for me, IT WONT FADE. So yah. aiya. care for him as a friend is enough for me.