o.o

today while clearing up after the event ended, I accidentally cut my index finger.. Luckily it's right hand lor. it was bleeding lor. UNDER MY FINGERNAIL SOMEMORE. a little gross. my fingernail is like, RED IN COLOUR. lolz.

Obviously I cannot run to Him and inform about it right.. I mean, siao ah. Unless i'm still his gf lar, then if the first person to inform SHOULD BE HIM. but that isnt the case. The next person I can think of is Andy. Went back to the kitchen and told Andy, Ivan was.... at the stewarding area. Andy and I were outside chill room. Showed Andy my bleeding finger... Ivan walked passed us and he notice about it.. Andy was like telling me "faster go wash your wound first". Then it's like, before I can answer Andy, Ivan held onto my finger and dragged me go chill room to wash. LIKE omg. I swear I saw his face. Is like those damn worried one. and he kept on 'scolding' me for being dumb -_- He was holding onto my finger ALL THE WAY leh. While he was doing so, I was feeling rather elated, but at the same time kinda scared because what if other managers or Harta saw it... they will definitely scold him, as I can wash it myself mah. Sigh.. idk idk. There's something I know from today. He still cares for me. Because now HE KEEP ON BULLYING ME. Even though I know i'm not the one who is closest to him now, at least I aint a normal friend to him. I know I still cannot forget... but i'm just waiting for time to pass. Hopefully i'll be able to put down someday. Amy and yy, please dont rush me to forget this love. because I really want to treasure all this time with him even as a friend before poly starts.. once poly starts, i know i'll never ever have the chance to see him ever again. this is what i truly fear. I can only see him thru fb pictures.. that's all. Ya but i know both of you are hoping that i'll get over it soon, but i know both of you arent rushing me. loveya guys so much. :)